Happy days.
Jun. 20th, 2012 06:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
helblingI'm having one of those moments. It won't last long, but I thought I'd take advantage while I could.
You know the ones, where...well, saying 'everything seems right' is how most people would describe it, but that's not for me.
Because everything isn't 'right'.
And I wouldn't be this happy if it was.
The world is this mixed up, complicated and often nasty place.
And it's full of mixed up, complicated and confusing folk.
But occasionally, once in a blue moon or so, the stars align, the wind is just right, the clouds roll back and you get a faceful of sunshine, just for a moment.
My life has taken a couple of turns. I can't talk about all of them. Some of them aren't mine to talk about. But I got a couple of pieces of good news today which...they aren't the cause of this mood, actually, they were more icing on the cake and reminded me that I so often share my downs, maybe I should share my ups.
So here they are: I live in this city-in-denial in one of the prettiest places in the country, and it's not where I'd chose to be, but I can get along.
My job isn't what I want to do but it does have its rewarding moments and pays me enough to get by.
My future is uncertain, but just right now, I can't bring myself to care; I'll cope. Somehow. Someway. I will.
But the main bit that's making me happy is the people in it. People come into my life and leave it - sometimes they cycle back around. Sometimes they stick for a while. Sometimes they're only leaves on a breeze. Sometimes they make me want to tear my hair out. Sometimes they make me cry with happy.
Right now is one of those moments where I am looking at every person around me, that I have here, and I can see their flaws. Their insecurities and their bumpy bits and the things they get scared of or angry about or not angry enough about and you know what?
Right now, I don't care. Right now, they're all, every single one of them, perfect to me. I wouldn't change a bloody thing. As a matter of fact, you could offer me a lot of money to change something about any one of them, and I'd turn it down, because I probably wouldn't like them so much if they were perfect. Someone once said that you like people for their features, but love them for their flaws, and I've always thought that exceptionally true.
And that includes just about everyone on this damn f-list. So if you're reading this, know I am grateful for having you in my life and I think you're awesome, just as you are - and no, I'm not denying you have bits you aren't so proud of. I'm saying you're awesome just like that.
A lot of you are probably staring at the screen right now a little goggle-eyed because you know how I am with emotion. And you're right - you see that note I made up the top? This won't last long. But I figured enough with sharing the bad. I'm going to share the good while it's here.
Understand, I'll slip quietly
Away from the noisy crowd
When I see the pale
Stars rising, blooming over the oaks.
I'll pursue solitary pathways
Through the pale twilit meadows,
With only this one dream:
You come too.
-- First Poems by Rainer Maria Rilke
You know the ones, where...well, saying 'everything seems right' is how most people would describe it, but that's not for me.
Because everything isn't 'right'.
And I wouldn't be this happy if it was.
The world is this mixed up, complicated and often nasty place.
And it's full of mixed up, complicated and confusing folk.
But occasionally, once in a blue moon or so, the stars align, the wind is just right, the clouds roll back and you get a faceful of sunshine, just for a moment.
My life has taken a couple of turns. I can't talk about all of them. Some of them aren't mine to talk about. But I got a couple of pieces of good news today which...they aren't the cause of this mood, actually, they were more icing on the cake and reminded me that I so often share my downs, maybe I should share my ups.
So here they are: I live in this city-in-denial in one of the prettiest places in the country, and it's not where I'd chose to be, but I can get along.
My job isn't what I want to do but it does have its rewarding moments and pays me enough to get by.
My future is uncertain, but just right now, I can't bring myself to care; I'll cope. Somehow. Someway. I will.
But the main bit that's making me happy is the people in it. People come into my life and leave it - sometimes they cycle back around. Sometimes they stick for a while. Sometimes they're only leaves on a breeze. Sometimes they make me want to tear my hair out. Sometimes they make me cry with happy.
Right now is one of those moments where I am looking at every person around me, that I have here, and I can see their flaws. Their insecurities and their bumpy bits and the things they get scared of or angry about or not angry enough about and you know what?
Right now, I don't care. Right now, they're all, every single one of them, perfect to me. I wouldn't change a bloody thing. As a matter of fact, you could offer me a lot of money to change something about any one of them, and I'd turn it down, because I probably wouldn't like them so much if they were perfect. Someone once said that you like people for their features, but love them for their flaws, and I've always thought that exceptionally true.
And that includes just about everyone on this damn f-list. So if you're reading this, know I am grateful for having you in my life and I think you're awesome, just as you are - and no, I'm not denying you have bits you aren't so proud of. I'm saying you're awesome just like that.
A lot of you are probably staring at the screen right now a little goggle-eyed because you know how I am with emotion. And you're right - you see that note I made up the top? This won't last long. But I figured enough with sharing the bad. I'm going to share the good while it's here.
Understand, I'll slip quietly
Away from the noisy crowd
When I see the pale
Stars rising, blooming over the oaks.
I'll pursue solitary pathways
Through the pale twilit meadows,
With only this one dream:
You come too.
-- First Poems by Rainer Maria Rilke
